Wednesday, September 29, 2004

Psalm 145:14-18

The LORD sustains all who fall
And raises up all who are bowed down.
The eyes of all look to You,
And You give them their food in due time.
You open Your hand
And satisfy the desire of every living thing.
The LORD is righteous in all His ways
And kind in all His deeds.
The LORD is near to all who call upon Him,
To all who call upon Him in truth.

Monday, September 27, 2004

Honour Academy

A brochure for Teen Mania’s Honour Academy came today. It will (once I read it) tell me all sorts of important things to know before going, or planning to go, to their internship. I read one once a couple of years ago, but it was old then. This one will be able to tell me more about now, and not five or six years ago.

I first started thinking about going to the honour academy when I was fourteen (three years ago). At first I think it was me trying to make a plan for my life. It really bugged me to not have any clue what I wanted to do once I was out of high-school.

What brought about my thinking of the internship as a good idea, was my going on a mission trip with teen mania to Peru’. Several people on my teem decided to go that fall or the next summer, and one of the girls in my room was an intern. It only seemed logical to go.

I have spent a lot of time praying about it these past few years. I don’t want to be going for myself. I want to know that it is God’s will for me and not just a good idea. The more I pray about it, the more I feel like it is not just my idea, but God’s. There is still more I need to think and pray about before going. Hopefully it will become clearer to me this next year.

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

Piano tuner

I have always liked listening to instruments as they are getting tuned. Today our piano got tuned, and I sat in my room right below it and listened. It is cool to hear it go from the nose of being out of tune, to hearing it play how it was made to.

The piano is very pretty, when it is in tune. When it is not, it is harder to play because it sounds wrong. It also helps when you know how to play the piano really well. After the piano tuner had finished his work, he sat down and played. It was very beautiful. I wish I could play the piano that well.

Anyway, I have to wait a little while to play big piano pieces. Until then, I just have to listen to other people play the really pretty big pieces.

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Snow!

It’s the first snow of the year...
I guess it comes but once a year...

That is a lovely song (note my sarcasm) off the Gap cd of last Christmas.

Snow came last night, and it has been snowing until just a little bit ago. Most places it did not stick, but just quickly melted. However, it did stick very well to my dog while she was out there. It stuck to some other things around our yard, but for the most part it is melting fast.

It excites me to watch the snow work its way down the mountains. Once everything is covered in snow, it is awesome to take a walk, or a drive, when a full moon is out. The snow makes everything brighter, and you can go along knowing where you are because you can see everything so well. Especially when the sky is clear too, then you can look up at the stars as you sit in the snow.

Near where I live is not the first to get snow, nor do we always get very much. This year is looking hopeful for us getting more than a couple of inches to a half a foot. At least, that is what I am hoping the rain we have been getting means. If not I will have to go somewhere else to get the deeper snow.

Saturday, September 18, 2004

Impossible

Sometimes things seem really impossible, and when they do I tend to try and do something about it. My tries to make eveything better does not always help things very much, if at all. I then just end up stressed because I cannot do it. I forget that God is still in control, even when it seems like He is not. He does have a plan and it will all work out in the end.

Friday, September 17, 2004

The fair

My house is crazy right now. The fair is this week, and my little sister, Joanie, Sue and Jeremiah are doing a fund raiser there. My mum and them have been backing all week for it, and I have been trying to stay out of the way. That is not to say that I did not try to get some food out of them. "Just one? I’ll split it with Julie." but most of my pleas for food went out to them aimlessly. I was told that it was for the fund raiser, and to go away.

Even though I was sent away hungry, I hope they do well.

Every Little Thing

Everything must change
There’s a mirror showing me the ugly truth
These bones they ache with holy fire
But I’ve got nothing to give, just a life to live
If your world is without colour
I will carry you, if you carry me

Every little thing’s gonna be alright
Every little thing’s gonna be alright [x2]

There’s no-one else to blame
I live my life between the fire and the flame
I’ve built my house where the ocean meets the land
It’s time to live again, pull my dreams out of the sand
Let your world be full of colour
I will carry you, if you carry me

When it’s all falling down on you
You’re crying out but you’re breaking in two
When it’s all crashing down on you
When there’s nothing you can do
There is someone who can carry you

Written by Martin Smith and Stuart Garrard

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Murdered

I did it, I killed one of the spiders. Last night before I went to bed it was by my trunk, and I tried to get it away. This made it mad, so I was afraid it would try to bite me when I went to bed. My imagination took my on a little trip, and I started wondering if it bit me would I get sick or maybe die. If not than maybe my arm would not heal right. Perhaps this one little spider would start a revolution against me, and all of them would attack me at once! (It was late at night, I was tired)

The spider was soon spotted on the other side of my room. With out hardly thinking I grabbed my shoe and killed it. Once the evidence was cleaned up, I thought about this little spider the size of a quarter. I think I may need to end my truce with the spiders, or at least the really big ones that I am told bite.

Monday, September 13, 2004

The nasty things are gone

I got my stitches taken out today. I was afraid it would hurt, but it did not hurt to bad. It was a rather yucky to feel it being pulled out, but I am glad they are gone. Now I can look at my arm with peace in my stomach (yeah the stitches bugged me that much. I have decided never to become a doctor).

I can now do anything I want to with that arm, and probably more than I really want to at times. The doctor told me I could even do a hand stand, but I think since I have never been that good at those, I won’t do it.

Sunday, September 12, 2004

Hebrews 13:5-9

Make sure that your character is free from the love of money, being content with what you have; for He Himself has said, "I WILL NEVER DESERT YOU, NOR WILL I EVER FORSAKE YOU,"
so that we confidently say, "THE LORD IS MY HELPER, I WILL NOT BE AFRAID. WHAT WILL MAN DO TO ME?"
Remember those who led you, who spoke the word of God to you; and considering the result of their conduct, imitate their faith.
Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.
Do not be carried away by varied and strange teachings; for it is good for the heart to be strengthened by grace, not by foods, through which those who were so occupied were not benefited.

They will take me away

My arm is itching so bad. I will go mad before Monday fore sure. It itches and I cannot reach it, and it won’t stop itching. Who made cast/raps that you could not take off when you wanted to anyway? The crazy person was not thinking of these things when they made them.

Won't Make It

You need to see yourself a little differently
You need to learn to take it easier on yourself
You need to be a little more self-accepting
You need to trust that you won't make this on your own.
You won't make it, you won't make it on your own
You will break it, you will break it on your own

Maybe it's time, maybe you need to spread your wings
Maybe you're right, cos you don't need the things you've seen
But don't just decide, don't make decisions you can't take
Ride out the ride, and please don't close the door alone

You won't make it, you won't make it on your own
You will break it, you will break it on your own
You can't take it, you can't take it on your own

by Cathy burton

Saturday, September 11, 2004

Good, Better, Best

Have I come to the end of my rope? Good! Am I just about ready to lose my
grip? Even better! Did I let go and fall down? Best of all! At last I am lying
at Jesus’ feet. Now He can change my heart. He will fill me with the Holy
Spirit.


"I indeed baptize you with water...but He...will baptize you with the
Holy Spirit and fire." Matthew 3:11


based on the classic devotional by Oswald
Chambers My Utmost for His Highest
Jesus Wants All of Me adapted by Phil A.
Smouse



This sounds like a rather funny little thing I pulled out of Julie’s devotional at first, but when you think about it, it is true. At times we don’t think it is that great to feel like you have no control over things. It stinks feeling like you can do absolutely nothing. Maybe those are the times God can really speak to you, because you are ready to hear Him say some thing, anything.

Wednesday, September 8, 2004

Stitches

I have decided that stitches are disgusting. When I got the rap off my arm yesterday, I took one look and was sure it was a sickening sight. It was not the incision that bothered me (as you might think it would), but the stitches. I honestly don’t get it, but they sicken me. I would rather see the incision with out them. I am very glad my arm is covered and I cannot see them.

Saturday, September 4, 2004

No words

For any one that has been reading my blog, I won’t be writing much for (hopefully) a short time.
See I had surgery this week, and I was forewarned my eyes might do weird things because of my Dyslexia. Well those "weird things" are making it so that I can no longer see words. Some words I can see, but I cannot read a book nor my Bible. :( The words just looked like a gray smug across the page, with little black lines going through it. Hopefully as this next week comes about I can read again, but for now I am having people read to me.

Wednesday, September 1, 2004

Twenty-four

twenty-four oceans, twenty-four skies,
twenty-four failures in twenty four tries.
Tweny-four finds me in twenty-fourth place.
With twenty-four dropouts at the end of the day.

Life is not what I thought it was
twenty-four hours ago.
Still I’m singing Spirit take me up in arms with You.
And I’m not who I thought I was
twenty-four hours ago
Still I’m singing Spirit take me up in arms with You.

Twenty-four reasons to admit that I’m wrong
with all my excuses still twenty-four strong.

But see I’m not copping out
when you’re raising the dead in me.

Oh, I am a second man
oh, I am a second man now
oh, I am a second man now

and you’re raising these twenty-four voices
with twenty-four hearts
with all os my symphonies in twenty-four parts
but I want to be one today
centered in true

I want to see miracles
to see the world change
I wrestled the angel
for more than a name
for more than a feeling
for more than a cause
Still I’m singing Spirit take me up in arms with You.
You’re raising the dead in me

by jonathan foreman
performed by switchfoot