Jackie and Jacki

Okay, so yesterday, Jackie and I had lunch together (with a few of my room mates: Kathy, Jessica, Meagan). For a long time I was the only Jacki on campus, but then Jackie came to join me in January. So, what did we talk about? How irritating it is when people say our name wrong, Jacquelyn or Jacqueline.

Some people will be like, "Jackalyn," or "Jackline," and they just kill it! Anyway, we both admitted to not answering sometimes when people said our name wrong, or just saying, "just call me Jacki."

...yeah, anyways...

Fasting retreat

Where there is no vision, the people perish: but he that keepeth the law, happy is he ~Proverbs 29:18 King James Version

I have heard this verse a lot lately leading up to this fasting retreat/LTE (Life Transforming Event). Especially the first part of the verse, "Where there is no vision the people parish..." Another translation put says that the people run wild.

It kind of makes me think, where there is no definition of what you are and are not to do, you just make up your own rules, or have none. Think of a day care with no rules. Be scared.

Anyway, this fasting retreat for the August was about our vision in life, your direction. Since this has been something I have been praying about for a while, I do not really feel like I got a plan for my life, but more so that God confirmed what had already been growing in my heat. I think He also really got me excited about it in a new way too. There are times these past few days I feel like a little kid, so eager to just go for it, and God is going, "wait you are not quite ready yet." Like when your about to go play in the snow and your mum goes, "Wait, you still need your gloves. Do you have warm socks on? Okay, go take off your boots and find your warm socks."

And your just like, "But I want to go out now mum. You don't understand! I want to spend as much time as I can in the snow."

Your mum is standing there zipping up your coat, "No, I get you want to spend as much time in the snow as you can, but if you are not ready, you won't be able to. I am helping you play longer, I really am." Yeah, that is kind of how I have felt some times these past few days. Then there are those times that I sit there and go, "How on earth is this all going to fall into place? And hey, what about telling me where I am going, and not just telling me I am going?"

I am beginning to think my CA is very like God in a certain way, SHE NEVER TELLS US ANYTHING. Shannon will be like, "Meet me here for Core and we will go from there."

Everyone in my Core will ask her, "Where are we going?"

She will say, "It is a surprise." Honestly, I gave up asking for the most part. It like, 'Well, she will make sure we all get there, she always does.' Then sometimes I cannot help but wonder what she is up to with some of the things she asks us to do.

Anyway, that was kind of off topic.

This fasting retreat was very different than my first one last semester. Last semester, it was like, BOOM, BOOM, BOOM!! God just speaking over and over again. Telling me of His love for me and how He really looks at me, instead of how I had come to think He thought of me. It really opened up a time that I am really still in of seeing who I am in Christ, and I don't think it is by any means over.

Yet, this last weekend was much more chill. Kind of like I was resting with God. I mean, yeah, He was showing me different things over the weekend in my time in His word or in prayer, but I guess it was just not as loud. It was more expected and I was listening better maybe. I don't really fully know.

Moral of this story...Fasting is awesome!

...even if you feel like you are going to die at times...

This weekend

Okay, so this weekend was awesome. However, I don't have enough time to post about it right now. I also still need to ask Dave if I can put The Plan on here and find out if I have enough know how to do so (that may be the hardest part, getting it on here even if he says yes).

Anyway, my blog really is in need of something right now (part of that would be more of my time I am sure). So, I might be thinking about what I can do for it. It may turn out that I do nothing other than post more.

Staying!

so I have some hoiw missed posting about this...
Mia, a girl in my core, was thinking about leaving this past two weeks, and now...
SHE IS STAYING!!!
I don't think she knows how glad we are that she is staying!
I love you Mia!

First ever book club

Okay, so I have never been in a book club.
until...
da, DA, da, da....
today.

So, two friends of mine here, Ben and Krista, started a book club. I got into the very exclusive book club by way of application. At first we were going to read The Silver Chair, but now we are Reading the Great Divorce by C.S. Lewis. It has been so cool so far!

Anyway, just thought you would like to know that lovely fact.

:O

My baby sister is 18!!!

Joanie rocks and is no longer a minor!

Yeah, I cannot warch movies without her. It is just not the same when you are the only one laughing really hard at some of the sappy lines they have in them.

Anyway, Happy Brithday!

Sarah gone

I know I posted about Sarah being dismissed, but I did not really say much. It has been really hard, but some how good. Which makes no since at times.

I know Sarah grew through the time she was here at Teen Mania, and she is thinking of coming back this fall. Also, I can see she grew a lot just in the week before she got dismissed. Between wanting to leave, then deciding to stay, to confessing, to being dismissed, I can see she grew. It hurt, and still hurts me, to know she had to go through it and that she is no longer in the room next door to mine, but I know God can use you being dismissed from the Honour Accademy in ways I may never know.

Anyway, I have to go now, the mail here.

Waiting for the mail...**sings**

Yeah, okay so the mail is still not here for us to sort. Normally it is here like an hour ago.

Crazy...

...Maybe an angry mob of postall workers stoll our mail...

hmmm

Pain in the heart of my core

There does not seem like really any nice way to really go about saying this, other than out right saying it. One of the girls in my core got dismissed this week, she leaves campus this morning.

I knew when Shannon last minute did not go on the trip she had been planning to go on this weekend that something was wrong. Then when she email all the girls in my core that we had a core meeting we all needed to be at unless we were gone, I began to worry.

Now, Sarah is leaving.

When you guys think of it, please be praying for Sarah and my core. Along with my core family (my sister core, brother core and my core). We have had two dismissals in a weeks time as a family core.

MP...

I am now on my third Ministry Placment...

Wendy told me she understands the jumping of MPs.

Anyway, I am in the mail room now. You will most likely here more on that later.

Hard week turned out GREAT!

Okay, so here is the story from Sarah's Xanga. Needless to say, I have had a very crazy week. Yet, when Sarah came up to Andrea and I after we got back from church, it took a quick turn.
SARAH IS STAYING!!!

:D

The rest of this year is going to be so good for her. Yeah, it may be hard at times, but God has some awesome things instore for her. I can't wait to see how God will use the rest of her time here!

GIs dating?

Okay, so everyone on campus knows what day it is. Some have been waiting for it and longing for it, others seem to not even care. None the less, everyone knows it has come and whispers are everywhere...

Today is the day the August GIs (graduet interns, or second year interns)
can date.

warning: some roles aply to them when they do.

So...as I walked up to class today, forgetting it was March first, I see two guys holding larg pieces of wood, like bigger than two-by-fours, and the words written on them were, "March first prevention kits." I started laughing as I walked through the door, knowing that today would be interesting...

As the first year interns (which I would be one) see a guy and a girl GI sitting alone together today, we all know what their first thoughts will be...infact, I have already heard several GIs being questioned over their lunch together (I think I am glad I am not a GI right now :P ).