out to lunch with some long lost friends

Today, I went over to hang out with my sister, Jennifer, and Marie for the day and for lunch Marie set up something a little unexpected (though I knew she was up to something). Not long after we got to the little bagel shop, I saw Isaac out of the window, soon followed by Ben, Tyler and Jeff. Then a little while after that we were joined by Stephany whom I had never met (she spoke French and I felt rather bad that I could not really talk to her. I wish I could just learn how to speak French and Spanish overnight).

Having not seen some of them in about a year or a little more, I was very glad Marie set this up.

here are some pictures:

looking out the window at my sister's and Marie's house
Stephany
Jennifer and me (Jennifer can be a little odd)
Ben and Tyler (with their new puppies)
Jeff

My other pictures had bad lighting. Other wise I did have one of Marie and Stephany together and one of Ben, Tyler, Isaac and the puppies together. However, they were hard to see. As it is, I let Marie have my cammera and she took all of those but the top one (yeah, I know, that sounds sad. No need to cry for me...lol).

Perfect?

Maybe it is just me, but I feel like a lot is expected of me now that I have graduated from the HA. Like people are watching me waiting for me to blow it. Like I said, it could just be me wanting that for myself, but the truth is I am not perfect and I am going to blow it at some point in time. It is by the grace of God I even made it through the year at Teen Mania. Mind you I loved my year there and wish I could be there still a lot of the time, but God has a plan for me now back at home with my parents for this next month (in the beautiful state of Colorado. I want to see snow! anyway...).

I still have so much to learn...

Nose rings and the Bible

I was just reading Andrew's blog and I thought I would let you all know that nose rings are Biblical. He gave these on his site to show you it is: Ezekiel 16 and Genesis 24. So, what does this mean? Well, I have been thinking of piercing my nose, this proves it is okay (lol). Yet, I still do not think that will get me the okay from my parents while I live with them, nor the okay from my grandparents while I live with them. Thus, it will most likely have to wait until I move to the UK, and by that time I will have decided for sure whether or not I really want to.

Reading Blogs and Xangas

So, as I was reading different peoples blogs, I came acoss this on my RD, Callie's, Xanga. Very good post.

So often we view Jesus so wrongly and His calling us to Himself. He would not have called us if He did not want us or think we could follow Him.

...I love my RD...

Paint me?

Who Should Paint You: Alfred Gockel

All American yet funky, you inspire an artist's imagination And while not everyone will understand your portrait, you will!

What Artist Should Paint Your Portrait?

I just saw this on Christine's blog, thought I would do it (I do not like the picture they have for me).

Home in Colorado

I am now in Colorado. Yeah, I feel odd saying that, I really do not know why. It just still seems like I might be going back in a few days or like a nice long vacation (needed after a summer at Teen Mania, yikes!).

Here is a link to my core's Xanga so you can read about the road trip Jennifer Becky and I went on to see Kayla. Mind you is does not really say anything of our time with Kayla, just the getting there part.

It was really good to see Kayla after not seeing her for eight months! It is really odd going from seeing someone every day to just out of no where not seeing them (aka Kayla graduated and left).

Jennifer and I were only there for two days really, but that was enough time to go camping (car camping mind you), try to ketch frogs (Kayla says they were taunting her), I took some good pictures (But need to find a place with free wi-fi so I can put them on here from my laptop), watched the phantom of the opera, and a few other things too. It was great!

Now Kayla will be moving out of the country (I think this weekend) and onto the mission field. I know God has great things planned for her two years over seas and I cannot wait to hear about it.

On a different note, Joanie is now an intern (we kind of traded places), and I will be seeing her this weekend when some of the interns come up here to climb the mountain. Whch will be cool, but I will not be climbing this first time because my littlest sister Julie is getting baptized the day they are climbing, Sunday. So I will climb it with the next group the following Sunday. THat will rock. I will get to see most of my core mates that stayed a secound year or like Jess (my room mate) that is a Januarie and has not graduated yet. Man I miss them a lot (I think they may be something I say a lot).

Anyway, now that this post is getting rather long... OOO wait I just thought of something else I wanted to say:

So, I decided to go through everything I own while I unpack. My room is just now looking clean from my destorying it this week and I am almost done. That is a nice feeling.

Anyway, that is all, for now.

Gone!

I miss every buddy!

**tear**

umm... yeah, anyway.

So, I really don't know how I feel about all of this. At times I really want to go hide and cry because I miss everyone, then at times it seems like it was all a dream. However, them I walk down stairs and hear Becky playing the piano and I know it was real and I still have one of my core mates with me. Goodbyes can stink a ton! Yet, I know God has a plan for me in the short time I will be living with my parents again and then as I move on to live with my grandparents this fall.

**thinking of core song: this is your life by switchfoot **

We drop Joanie off tomorrow for her year at TM. It is going to rock! I can't wait to hear all of her stories. Yep, I know there will be nights she cries herself to sleep, wants to quit, thinks killing her room mates or dorm mates sounds wonderful, she will think she won't last it out, she won't be perfect, she will be broken, she will see love, know love, worship her heart out, my friends of all kinds, learn to love her room mates and RD group, get to know God better, see God work through her being faithful in the small things, see the world changed just a little more and a billion things more.

I love you Joanie. You will make it through this next year, hold tight to God and you will see Him work in your life and in those around you.

No longer an intern

So, I am not longer an intern at Teen Mania. I still do not know how to feel about this. It is really odd and I do not really think I get it. I sad goodbye today to so many people, yet, in part of my mind it is just not real. Maybe, I will wake up tomorrow and find myself back in my bunk.

Man, was it hard to say goodbey to my core. We said our first goodbyes Wednesday at our last core with many tears, but we had our final ones today. I miss them a tone already. At least I have Becky here with me and I will see several of them again this coming Wednesday when we drop Joanie off for her year at the HA.

I really want to sit and cry right now, yet at the same time I am really happy and excited that I made it through the year (by the grace of God). So many emotions. I really need to write in my journal a lot tomorrow, but tonight I need some sleep. I really need some sleep. My mind is leaving me now. OOooooo.... I need to put some pictures up tomorrow. Yeah, this is due some pictures. Oh, hey, why not just put one right now. Okay, here is one...


Some of the girls in my core out at a little coffee shop earlier this week.

the other room in my core -- Jessica, Mia, Anna and Becky

Jessica, the one that is not my room mate but my core.

My family before the Gala.
...Or four.

Room Mates back!

Yeah! Both Jessica and Kathy are back from their mission trips now. This is the first time in a month all of us have been in our room together was last night (mind you Kathy got back around 4 or 5 am, but it still counts).

Our room is more empty than I have ever seen it. Even when I first got here there was more stuff in there because Rebecca and Kayla were already there before I was and Kathy showed up shortly after I did. It looks depressing.

One last week @ the HA

A week from now, I will no longer be a Teen Mania intern. Infact, I will not even be on campus most likely by this time next week. I am so glad Becky and I are leaving together, that will make it nicer. It is going to be so hard to leave.

There are times when I am glad that I only have one week left. Like when one of my room mates is doing something that bug me or I get frustrated with different people on campus and then when I am out sitting in the shade not moving and swetting, I think of Colorado a lot, Then I am excited that I only have a week. On the other hand, there have been times when my core mate or my room mates and I are all chilling and I think of how we only have a week left, and I want to cry. Even if there are times my room mates can drive me out of my mind, I am going to miss them so much.

Last night about seven or eight of the girls in my core were all in my room and we were talking and just hanging out. It kept coming up in my mind tha ti really have only one week left with these girls. Yeah, I will most likely see at least my core again, but there are a lot of people I will never see again after this week.

Matthew 19:29
"And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or children or farms for My name's sake, will receive many times as much, and will inherit eternal life.

I have seen this ring true this year. Moving to Texas, away from my family and friends and away from weather you can live in without melting, but God has given me so much here at TM. I mean, common, at the biggest my family core had 47 members!

God is so faithful to His word, even when we are not faithful.

Arch

Well, I have to tell you a story before I go into it all, but the night before last I slipp on my ladder to my bed. When I fell, I landed full forse on the arch of my foot. So, yesterday I woke up and found I have a dark bruse on the bottom of my foot. It kind of hurt to walk yesterday at times.

Anyway, so I texted my sister, Jennifer, about it last night after I went on a run. So, word gets around to my friend Marie and she texted em this morning that I was awesome. This is my post to tell you that I am awesome, or so Marie says (she said it because she says I get hurt in the most random places and random ways).

At least my run did not hurt my foot too much. It did not really hurt very much at all until the end. Then when I got to the end of the mile and a half it started to hurt a far amount. So, my run ended. However, it did not make the bruse much darker.

Maybe I will put pictures of it up on here. Do you people wnat to see it?

Rumor

Okay, so there is this rumor now that is going around about me having a boy friend. I would like to clear that up by saying I do not and did not say I did. Just so you know. I said I could have one in two weeks. However, that kind of takes someone asking me and I do not think that will happen soon.